When I was 28, which seems such a short time ago, I made a list of 30 goals I wanted to achieve before I was 30. Simple right? Make 30 plans, stick to them and tick them off one by one. Ha!
I find it difficult, to believe in fate amongst the chaos but sometimes things fall so well into place that you it makes you wonder… What’s the cause? What if something along this path had changed and it sent me another way? It’s so strange to think of this butterfly effect – that there were a series of small seemingly unimportant events that changed my world, piece by piece.
Recently, my life has been turned upside-down. For so long I’ve been holding back what I wanted to do, who I wanted to be, the life I wanted to live. It was no-one’s fault; it just became this way slowly and I filled my life with material things as a way of filling some kind of void that I had inside me.
This isn’t one of those posts where I preach about how material things are unimportant. I understand that they all have a place, and so many things hold meaning in people’s lives. But to cut a long story short, I have (at least in the short term) moved out of my house and left a great deal of these material things behind, and it’s given me a little perspective on what’s really important.
“To dream the impossible dream, To fight the unbeatable foe
To bear with unbearable sorrow,To run where the brave dare not go”
If you aren’t scared of anything, are you even human? I have a few irrational fears, the kind that few people share and aren’t based on real explanations (like heights, drowning etc.) I am so disturbed by one of these fears, that I can’t mention it in case friends decide it would be funny to send me pictures of said creatures, my other is bathophobia.
Bathophobia; is a fear of unknown depths. (Not a fear of baths.) Places of utter blackness deep beneath the world, and my particular phobia relates to water too. I often get bad dreams about the vastness of the sea and rivers that defy gravity and surround me. I’d promised myself I’d address this fear and so this week when going on a trip to the Peak District I decided to face my fear!
Let me set the scene. I am a 20-something who hasn’t been able to hold down a vegetarian diet for more than a week in her whole life. I decided as part of my 30 Goals before I turn 30 that I would try out a vegan month.
Many people wondered why, and I honestly wasn’t sure… I guess I am so set in my ways that I hoped it would make me less scared of trying new things, and also prove to myself that I have willpower!
Here are a few tips on how to prepare for a Vegan month!