I find it difficult, to believe in fate amongst the chaos but sometimes things fall so well into place that you it makes you wonder… What’s the cause? What if something along this path had changed and it sent me another way? It’s so strange to think of this butterfly effect – that there were a series of small seemingly unimportant events that changed my world, piece by piece.
But Oh No, What if..?
Sometimes it sends me into a little panic, this series of “what if’s.” What if he’d never found me? What if I’d let the poisonous company I kept seep through? What if I’d never kissed him that day? But then it also makes me feel elated, like anything could happen at any moment and all I need to do is reach out and take it. He found me. I cut out those who brought me unhappiness. He kissed me back.
It seems the most impulsive little things I do are often the most rewarding. I planned to visit Stratford, and last minute I booked in to see a small production of Jane Eyre at The Attic Theatre and we decided while there to visit the Butterfly Farm. It turned out to be one of the most perfectly idyllic days. Both the play and the farm were spectacular and where I’d been feeling very low for a few weeks, it picked me up dramatically. It’s a happy memory that will always stay with me and I can draw on during the darkest times.
We’re choosing the path between the stars
The small changes like getting up the courage to leave the house, approaching that new person, or going to that book club, can alter your course for the better. All we need to do is well, IT… whatever it may be, and believe me I know that’s not always easy to do.
I’ve been in such a slump that I’ve not taken opportunities I’m given; I’ve isolated myself, I’ve not worked as hard as I should have, I’ve taken the easiest route. But my life is proof, that these small moments do make a difference. So now, I am going to try my best to focus positively on these seemingly small decisions.
I’ll seek them out and treat them with care and attention. After all, who knows what effects they may have on my future.