One thing I’ve had to learn is that friends are not something to be collected like Pokémon or POGs. I know that sometimes individuals will surround themselves with as many people as possible in order to feel appreciated or wanted, but I have found that you can feel just as privileged having a few select friends who truly love you.
For weeks now, I’ve felt overwhelmed by the most minor of tasks… It’s safe to say I have not been adulting very well. Any thought of writing or creating was completely out of the window, as I struggled with the basic instinct of waking up and giving a damn about anything past what’s in front of my eyes. It’s a horrible feeling. It quells my ability to stop and truly think deeply about anything.
Every time I started a blog post, I typed out a paragraph and then thought, this is going nowhere. I’ve been through stints like this before – where everything is a struggle and it feels like I’m trapped behind a haze inside my own brain. But the logical side of me always knows it doesn’t last.
I just needed to wait it out.
I am forever telling you all about my childhood and how great it was. I was a lucky girl with a steady family and a pleasant upbringing, being able to achieve anything I wanted and always top-of-the-class. This is something I really value now I’m old enough to appreciate it, and I know that I am one of the minority who had this.
My abilities and idyllic surroundings brought forward feelings in me that I was in some way… Exceptional. I thought that everyone was placed there for my benefit; like everything was created to please, or anger, or confuse me. I am not sure how common it is, but when I was a kid I thought the world was made for me alone. It was a “God Complex” – a feeling that I had unlimited personal potential and control. Think a Hermione Granger in the Philosopher’s Stone mentality… (But don’t worry, it doesn’t last.)
You know when you’re first getting to know someone new, and you ask them all those very important questions that pop into your head?
If you could only eat one food for your life what would it be? What superhero power would you pick?
What would your plan be in a zombie apocalypse?
Ladies and Gentlemen, it would appear I have lost my Muchness. But it’s okay, don’t worry! I’ve decided on how I’m going to get it back, and this is the first step. But, first of all some of you might be thinking, what the heck is ‘Muchness’?
I must say, it was absolutely spectacular. The venue was gorgeous and decadent and the businesses there were fantastic. I’d never been to such a big PR event before so I didn’t quite know what to expect but…
Okay firstly, I’m coming up to a year of blogging and I can’t believe it. It’s been such a brilliant year for me and I have done more awesome things as a result. That kinda changed recently when I hit some kind of mental wall. Since that week, I’ve struggled to think. I’ve also cut myself off from the interesting things I do.
I am usually so driven. Anyone who knows me can tell I’m never happy unless I am productive and busy. So when I hit a bump in the road like this, it really knocks me about. So this week I’ll just be a little more honest; with myself, and with you…
Let me set the scene. I am a 20-something who hasn’t been able to hold down a vegetarian diet for more than a week in her whole life. I decided as part of my 30 Goals before I turn 30 that I would try out a vegan month.
Many people wondered why, and I honestly wasn’t sure… I guess I am so set in my ways that I hoped it would make me less scared of trying new things, and also prove to myself that I have willpower!
Here are a few tips on how to prepare for a Vegan month!
For some time now, I had been looking forward to being a bridesmaid for one of my best friends. We first got asked over a year ago, and since then the excitement has been growing towards her special day. With the hen do weekend over, we knew it was almost here! The wedding was to be held at the beautiful Saxon Mill, and we were all buzzing!
Last weekend I experienced my first ever Bristol Hen Weekend! One of my good friends is getting married in July (for which I have bridesmaid duties!) and this weekend was her send-off. It was an awesome experience and one I’ll never forget. It was completely different to anything I’ve ever done…